When I had a miscarriage before Arri was born I got one day off, and even then there were parents who were like, “well could Robert just watch them while you rest?” I hadn’t taken sick days all year, I was miscarrying our child but it was a complete inconvenience to take the NEXT day off, they didn’t even come and get their kids early that first day, since I was in the hospital Robert could just watch them, I don’t think the thought even crossed anyone’s mind that I might possibly want my husband by my side, so I sat in the hospital alone for hours. That was when I realized how crappy my job really was. There have been so many class parties, school plays, and field trips that I missed, that I wasn’t able to be there there for MY kids so I could sit at home and entertain OTHER PEOPLE’s kids. But that’s just what we signed up for so as frustrating as it is, there’s nothing else that we can really do about it. I wish sometimes SO bad that there were other work-from-home options, but there really aren’t. As for maternity leave. I think I got about 2 weeks (Unpaid Of Course) because that’s all we could really save up for. I’m hoping I get at least that this time. Then of course Robert is like, Well even after we start watching the kids again I’ll be there for the first couple weeks and I can help with the kids and you can just rest, ya that lasted a few days, then it was just me and the kids.

Totally not trying to be a Debbie Downer or make you feel worse, just saying more that I’m TOTALLY FEELING THE EXACT SAME WAY right now. Just like, Ahhhh there’s GOT to be another way! At the very least it helps to know that we’re not alone, we’ve got our sisters and we totally stick together, we have this awesome family unit that is always there for eachother. I take so much comfort in that.

Also take comfort knowing that Zane sees all and knows all and he knows every single bit how much you LOVE him and how PROUD you are of Him! He sees how hard you work and he knows that you do it for your family. He knows that you’re the best mommy in the world and he is every bit as excited for Rocky to be here as you are, I know it! Kids understand SO much more then we give them credit for and even though that means that they understand when we’re going through hard times it also means that they watch us overcome all these obsticles along the way and they see how we grow from them and they grow themselves. We totally had kids young and so we’re just kinda growing up with them, its crazy hard at times but its also completely amazing.

I’m so thankful that I get to share this experience with you and our family and that we can all overcome challenges and help eachother along the way.

I am totally and completely here for you if you need anything at all, even if its just to vent. =)

Love You.