heymae

Happy.

13
Jun 2009

Today is a really good day. Slept in, ate some chocolate chip pancakes and finished a book while Ian was painting Zane’s room. Zane has always had white walls, and he is now the proud owner of a rockin’ tourquise room. He is super excited, especially for his loft bed that I just got off of freecycle (to be painted a color still to be determined).

Today is one of those days that just feel so good. There is this simple calmness in my soul, that seems to be telling me that this is what I am going to look back on as one of the best times of my life. I have so much. I am in love with my life right now, and yet it is so simple. I have taken school off indefinitely, my primary job being the daycare and being the caretaker of our household (as well as incubating this little shrimp). I must say, I am not the type of person I would of imagined being a stay at home mom. My life has always been full of dreams and ambitions, there are things I want to accomplish, recognition I want to obtain. Lately, however, nothing seems more enjoyable to me than curling up on the couch with Ian and Zane in my clean and organized house and simple being. Being here and being present. It amazes me how really at the core of my being my wants are so simple. A husband that loves me indefinitely, children to spoil and love, a home that feels comfortable and lived in. Yes, there is still a desire for travel and success and accomplishments, but it all feels so secondary. Sure it would be great, but its not going to be the end of the world if I never go to Italy, never get a book published or am recognized for my outstanding achievements.